“Trust the process,” they said. But how can one truly rest in uncertainty?
I recently found myself talking to this person, and he mentioned his philosophy in life — “Not to rush things. As long as the motivation and intention are there, we’ll definitely get there. And success tastes sweeter when you’re savoring every moment.”
In that moment, my mind didn’t think twice. It just did its usual routine of grabbing that thought and reflecting on it for the next few hours.
I believe in the saying, “Everything works out in the end.”
That’s the only hope I’ve always been holding onto.
But the truth is, when you’re still in the waiting, resting in uncertainty is a little damn scary, right? Especially for someone like me, who craves control over everything. Having control gives me the assurance that what I’m doing is right, that failure is nowhere to be found.
But I guess failure isn’t something I can control. We’ll only know something is a failure once we’ve tried. And failure scares me. Big time. Because I can’t fail. Failing at something means failing my family and myself. It means I’m not enough. And my heart just can’t accept that. Too scared to accept that.
Why am I like this? Is there something wrong with me?
Sigh. I’m such a people pleaser.
I’m sorry. This past week just feels so heavy, and here I am blurting out my emotions for everyone to see. I’m so used to hiding my feelings, keeping silent because I’ve always been shut off for being “too sensitive” or “too emotional.”
But now, I’m learning that being vulnerable is not a weakness.
It’s just being human, like everyone else. And I no longer have to appear strong every single day, because that’s exhausting, for real.
So here I am, reassuring myself once again. Trusting the process means accepting that we don’t know everything and still choosing to show up anyway. Maybe embracing uncertainty is a good thing — because it holds the opportunity to unfold into the best stories of our lives.