Today felt different. Not entirely different, just not my usual kind of day. I’m a sensitive person, so I’m used to having all my emotions bottled up and fighting their way to the surface. But this time, it’s a different kind of mix – a strange combination of feeling okay, confused, flat, happy, and worried all at the same time.
Maybe I’m just stressed, or maybe I simply have a lot on my plate lately. I didn’t even get enough sleep last night. My mind keeps running the same thoughts and replaying the same scenarios over and over again.
I’ve been trying to analyze every thought, seeking solutions to every problem, and finding answers to every question. But here I am, getting lost deeper and deeper into the unknown, and ending up a little bit more confused than before. Having all these emotions makes everything blurry. It’s hard to think clearly, and I find myself losing awareness of the present because I’m too caught up in my mind.
I guess this is just part of being human. Some days are good, some days are bad. And today is definitely one of my low-type days. It is during moments like this that journaling becomes my best friend. It helps me lay out the bits and pieces of my thoughts, and I just let them process themselves. And with the rain outside, it feels like the perfect day for a quiet reflection.
Everyone’s mood shifts to some degree. Sometimes, it can be intense, unpredictable, or hard to manage, just like this. But I guess it’s safe to say – it’s okay. I’m okay. I’m just a human being with a lot of thoughts in my mind and emotions in my body. This doesn’t mean I’m broken. It just means I need to understand and regulate myself.
I know I’m not making sense to anyone right now. But that’s okay, right? It’s okay to feel this way. This is temporary. I just need to feel every emotion, process every thought, and let them pass through on their own.
It’s not called an emotional rollercoaster for nothing. After all, emotions are meant to twist, turn, and rush – until they finally come to a stop.